To be honest, I think this is the end of the road. This is my final howl…or is it? (UPDATE)

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I know this may seem sudden, but I have to confess.

A couple of months ago, I had a death in the family, my father actually. I’m still dealing with his passing. On top of that, I’m still suffering from a severe case depression, and this week was especially hard on me. I’ve been dealing with this for over a couple of decades, and I guess the death of Father Wolf hit me harder than I realize.

I’ve honestly been thinking about closing down the den for a while, but I felt like I should stay to help contribute to much-needed conversations of what’s going on in society, and thanks to my years of blogging, I’ve learned so much and have grown considerably, I think.

However, through it all, I was fighting an inner war, a war to stay afloat and not drown in my own depression. It was so bad that so many things that didn’t happen to me directly was enough to trigger a bout of misery and pain. I carried on, nonetheless, and pushed through it, never to run away from a fight.

But now, I think it’s time for a new strategy. After seven years of being Brotha Wolf and before that Blaque Ink, I think it’s time for me to focus more on my true self as William (Will) Capers.

Don’t worry. I’ll always stay woke, and I may come back with another blog. Only time will tell.

For now, I want to thank each and every one of you for following me and giving me your thoughts on the topics I’ve covered. I also want to thank those who came to troll as I’ve learned a lot from them as well.

In closing, I just hope you all continue to stay woke and keep fighting whatever battles you’re having or will face. There are many other blogs and websites out there who have done a better job than I on informing the public. Please check them out and support them. In this era where the truth is becoming a suggestive term, the push to seek and maintain the whole, untouched and unbiased truth is dire more than ever. We must continue to fight for justice against all oppositions, and though the journey will be hard and even painful, it’s a necessary task that must be took for a better today and tomorrow.

I will close my blog in a day or so. It’s hard for me to do this, but I feel it’s necessary for me to help myself with my own battles. I’m sorry if this hurts anyone.

Welp, I guess this is goodbye. It’s time for me to leave my den. Take care everyone. Much peace and love to you all.

UPDATE: I was going to close this blog down, but after the comments I’ve received, I decided to hold on for a while. Also, I don’t know if I will completely give up blogging. I may come back, but under a new blog. I felt like this one has run its course.

So, I guess what I’m saying is that I’m not 100% certain this will be it for me in the blogosphere, but if you want to move on to other blogs, I understand as I’m not sure what to do at this point. Until then, I may return, and I may not. In any case, please take care and enjoy life as much as possible.


27 thoughts on “To be honest, I think this is the end of the road. This is my final howl…or is it? (UPDATE)

  1. Oh, I’m so sorry about hearing about your father’s passing. No doubt that it has to be hard on you.

    You have to do what is best for you.To be honest, you’re doing the right thing.Darkness+Darkness doesn’t equal positivity. You’re dealing with your father’s death…then doing a blog,where you “meet” people wanting to bring you down/ reading about doom and gloom of the world, can be too much and if you have no positive balance in it…eventually ,you will get physically,mentally and spiritually sick.

    That’s your pops…the other rock in your life and for a love one to pass is not always an easy ordeal to get over. The only thing you can do is to keep reminding yourself that everything will be ok I’m due time . Again,you’re doing right in closing your blog . Also surround yourself around positivity..whether its,people,places or things as much as possible.

    Though I’m sorry to see your blog being shut down,your well being comes first.Who knows like you just said ,you may have another blog telling the world good news about your and how you can use your experience to help others.

  2. My sincerest condolences to your and your family. I understand but hope to see you back keeping us informed and providing your insight. Best wishes.

  3. My sincerest condolences to you and your family. I understand but hope to see you back keeping us informed and providing your insight. Best wishes.

  4. Wow….My Good Kinsman, And Fellow Blogger…Am Going To Miss The Notifications From You For Sure. Thank You So Much For All Of your Time And Contribution To Fighting This Good Cyber Fight. My Condolences To You & Family For The Loss, Having Lost My Mom 2 Years Ago Eye Do Understand—The Life Landscape Changes! Be Well, And Take Very Good Care Brethren…

  5. Thanks so much for sharing much needed insight into a world so filled with darkness! I enjoyed reading your blog and will continue to stay woke!

    Peace my brother (literally)!!!
    Sista Wolf

  6. I have always been a firm advocate of self care. You have to do what you must do. We’ll be here, whenever you’re ready to continue your discussion.

  7. My condolences to you. Rather than closing the blog, just leave it open and use options on the admin side to close comments. That way, your work will not be in vain. Your posts can still be read.

    I will miss you.

  8. Thanks for giving of your self and creating this space. Condolences for your loss. Take care of your self, LKEKE35 is right- self-care is HIGHLY important. Self care is whatever you like that makes you feel well – trying new food, comfort food, going for walks, running, Yoga, Meditating, Video Games, Dancing, Reading, Sleeping…going to get a massage. Do something that helps you feel good. Hope this isn’t an entire “goodbye”, but “until we meet again”. If you can, visit the Bahamas this summer for Junkanoo, it might lift your spirits :).

  9. As I life long suffer of severe depression and also losing my father I completely understand and you should be taking care of yourself. I started my blog because of depression and I ended because of depression. So yeah, handle your illness and we’ll be here when you come back if ever.

    Also, the only thing that took my mind off of my father’s death was the murder of my cousin.

  10. These are indeed are hard times for you. But like the saying goes, “whatever doesn’t kill you makes you stronger!” I think you will come out a better being from these experiences once you take this opportunity to reflect and rebuild. Keep the light shining brother! Trust me, you’ll be fine.

  11. @ BrothaWolf

    I understand where you are coming from. Time to take care of yourself and work through the grief and depression. It is a process and it won’t always be as intense as it is now.

    I agree with Xena. Please just close comments and let other people benefit from your years of sharing, growth and hard won wisdom. You never know whose life you may help in the future….

  12. Dear Brothawolf:

    My condolences to you on the loss of your father. I know how difficult it is, since I have lost both parents.

    I agree with several posters — take care of yourself and get PROFESSIONAL HELP! Depression is not something to play with! Also, contact people who are dealing with the same thing, since that can help, too.

    I have enjoyed your blog, even though I may not have commented with every visit, I have still read your thoughts and appreciated your perspectives! Like other posters, I will miss your blog, but self-care should take precedence. Whatever you decide to do, you do what is best for you. I will be praying for you.


  13. My dear brother, the work you have done over the years I have known you as Blaque Ink and then Brotha Wolf will stand the test of time. You have fought White Supremacy valiantly and without flinching, while always forced to navigate the anguish of being a Black man in America. It is an honor to know you and I am more grateful than you can imagine that I have had the good fortune to stand beside you and fight the good fight. I will always have your back. You know where I am.

  14. I apologize for those of you with blogs, and I haven’t been active on them as I should. But like I said, I’m starting to consider taking a new route. I may start a new blog altogether. But for now, I’m just going to take a break, think about some things and work on myself.

    I don’t think this is truly the end.

    1. None of us has time or energy to do all we might have done. But we are a fellowship of warriors. There’s no doubt in my mind that, wherever you are, you’ll be about it. I am truly sorry for your loss. My mother and my younger sister passed last year and such experiences often bring deep reflection and even great shifts. Trust the process. And keep us posted. You are loved.

  15. This is not what I expected to come back to :(, but your health and healing is top priority. May your father’s soul rest in peace. I will definitely remember you and your family in my prayer. Whatever decision you make I support you. Your blog has always been a place where I can read raw and truthful commentary because you never act as though you know it all. It has always been relatable. Blessings to you Mr. Capers! *Hugs*

  16. Bye Brother Wolf
    I have enjoyed your blog so much. I am so sorry for your loss, and dealing with depression is never easy. I hope one day you will decide to return to bloging, but if not that’s ok too. Please take care of yourself

  17. As a rival over the past couple of years, I certainly hope you don’t close your blog. We disagree on everything, foundationally. But I’m very sorry to hear about your loss. Losing someone that we love AND look up to is…devastating to say the least. It makes your soul feel hollow.

    I can comfortably say this. If you manage your life with the same conviction and determination that you speak your mind…you’ll conquer anything life throws at you.

    It may not be much consolation, coming from me, but I find that when a loved one dies, it helps me to think of them as not really gone. Their legacy, their values and ideas, their passions reverberate on, through all the people they connected with. Through them, they still change the world, still inspire and love. So they are never really gone…just transformed.

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